A little over a month ago, I stopped eating. Not completely. But I severely altered the way I ate. A typical day would look like this: A coffee, which I would drink about half of and then I would decide that was enough and I didn’t really need the extra calories that came from the small amount of creamer I added to it and I would pour the remainder out, watching the dark tan liquid spiraling down the sink with satisfaction. After this, I would go to the gym. Just walking on the treadmill at first. Totally harmless, good for me even. I would get home around eleven and eat one of the following : 3 pickles or 2 bites of cottage cheese or 1 string cheese. MAYBE a combo of 2 pickles, 2 bites of cottage cheese or 2 pickles, 1 string cheese, pulling off 2 strings of the cheese and giving it to my dog, which I estimated took off at least 10 calories, maybe more if I gave her an extra-large string. I would eat a mostly regular dinner, although I’d give the dog more scraps than I normally would. I am not an overeater. I like healthy foods. So eating sometimes 600 - 800 calories a day was something I could do fairly easily because I didn’t really care that much, I didn’t get cravings.
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